PERIODS ARE DISGUSTING.
On one hand, hurrahI'mnotuptheduff!. On the other hand, periods are manky, and it means I'm still fat enough to have one. Of course I'm still fat enough. I've gained loads of weight (admittedly, I haven't been on the scales for a week and a half while I stressed about my lack of period) - I have no hip bones any more, and my ribs and spine are disappearing.
Today I ate a little food. I drank a pint of Diet Coke. I went to the toilet. I stuck my fingers down my throat and retched multiple times. I didn't purge. Instead, I cried. Firstly, I can't even get rid of this fatness. Secondly, I can't believe I tried.
I quite disgust myself sometimes.